Depth

In the past few months i have been thinking a lot about depths..depth of the ocean, depth of emotions, depth of character and so on.
Depth in a person.. that's one of the fascinating things. What does depth do... it creates layers in one's personality. The more layered the person is..the more charming, mysterious and intiguing he can be. And the joy it entails alongwith it when a person of same intellectual level unravels it and gets wondrous and awestruck by the deep layers to one's character. 
I personally crave for such wondrous experience but alas... today's world is filled with superficiality.. the depth is losing its significance.
But on a positive note i believe if i can exist so can many people out there who have the same craving. 


Something i read last night which i found too beautiful to not share it-

"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swamps of the not-quite, the not-yet and the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists..it's real..it's possible..it's yours." - Ayn Rand


Isn't that a beautiful thought..something to be kept close to one's heart to remind oneself about the possibilities when life seems in the shadows. 

Back from silence!!

After a long hiatus and not being able to write anything, i have finally decided to start again and never stop because there's so much of beautiful thoughts to share with the world. It will be about my own personal inner journey as well as some beautiful pieces i come across in my reading.

Loss

The feeling of losing something is enough to trigger unwelcome emotions. Sometimes it is hard to grasp the extent of one's love or attachment for someone and suddenly you find yourself rushing down like an unending roller coaster ride and come to the realisation that you did let something affect you hugely and you are unaware of the extent of its intensity. Feeling something similar to this even though haven't really lost anything yet but just the feeling i guess is enough to cause one pain.

Pause

I had totally forgotten about this blog of mine since so many things were happening in my life..was reading through it again and felt how far i have come emotionally.
Maybe i will write again..but for now i am silent and letting everything sink in.

Awakened In August

On 28th of August i felt awakened and alive...shaken from the cold chains of numbness and the event which transpired to this was a music concert. One of my most favorite bands Poets of the Fall obliged our country and i had the happy chance of witnessing them live. I have always loved their music.
In the past few years i tried to numb myself to many things..trying to not feel as much as i normally do and that somewhere was in the process of becoming a way of life.
But on that very day..i realized i haven't felt this alive in ages. The music awakened my senses and it was such a rush that it still lingers on..
I realized how much i have tried to ignore the things which truly brings me happiness and how wonderful it is to feel every nerve of the body vibrate and awaken.
Somewhere i believe it was a soul call for me to relax and enjoy whatever life has to offer and be truly alive at every moment.

Just Like An Old Movie On Repeat

Ever wondered how sometimes in life we face the exact same situations only with different characters...the crux remaining the same but with superficial changes? That's exactly what's been happening with me. We are supposed to learn from the past and make the right moves in future so that we do not end up committing the same mistakes of the past. Well as far as i have seen...sometimes no matter what you do..whichever way you choose..whatever maybe the approach..no matter how differently you deal with the same situations..most of the times you end up with the same results. It almost seems like an old movie being played on and on with the characters and the dialogues changing but the message remaining the same.

How do we break this chain? Is it humanly possible? Or is this a sign of the universe that no matter how big you think you are...your fate is still not fully in your control.. the universe can play a twisted joke and change the whole perspective of your life!

Troubled Soils of the Emotional Land!

Every person that we meet in our everyday life come with the power to cause trouble in our emotional land. You wish well for everyone you meet..still some people don't turn out to be good for you. They unknowingly create little ridges in the land of your heart..creating an impact which leaves you feeling like they were invaders.. stealing the ever elusive peace and prolonging the healing process. Just when you think you can stand up..face it all again..take chances again.. you are made to fall back on ground zero and you wonder "how am i here again? When and how did i fall back again? When did i trust again? I wasn't trusting anyone..i was shielded?" 
You question your beliefs..your sense of judgement..your learning over the years..how and why we end up in the same situation again and again when we ought to have learnt from our mistakes. But isn't taking chances another way of exposing oneself to probable mistakes again? 
How do we guard ourselves? No matter how cautious we are...how do we survive this? Life is after all a long journey..the question is how to get through  unscathed?